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I left off abruptly, and didn’t get a chance to write anything afterwards. That usually happens to me.
Can you believe when I was first writing blogs I was 15? That was 7 years ago. Wow. If you go back in time and compare my old blogs to these you’ll see a huge difference. Just to clear things up, I’m not depressed. I’m just…apathetic, in the sense of disinterest towards my life (work, school, more work), not emotional apathy. When I was still in high school and beginning college things were so different. I think I’m going through a rough phase in my life where I literally just work and work until I can’t work anymore. Have you ever felt nostalgic at this age? 22? Not old at all? How come I feel it? It’s not normal is it. I’m always thinking about the things I used to do and how things used to be when I’m only 22! Wtf is going on :| I haven’t even cracked a single joke throughout this whole blog. I hope this ‘phase’ ends soon because I’m just done with it.
Writing about this is good for me because I don’t like to dump my issues on people, and here I can just write whatever I want….knowing well someone I know MAY read it but not too concerned because this site is so dead and I’m surprised anyone reads anything I do, or likes anything I do or favorites anything I make.
My hair got so long, everyone’s said that I lost weight in my face which I absolutely hate, I’ve ran up my credit card bills in an attempt to remedy my lost soul with clothes and fancy things, I lost I got rid of some deceitful people who were only supplied the fodder for drama in my life – so that I could make it better. For once I actually stood up for myself. When I was in high school I had more of a voice, but as I got older it disappeared. I shut up. I became nicer…and nicer…and then there I was, I couldn’t tell anyone no. I didn’t want drama, I hated it. I don’t like fights. People took advantage of me – because I let them. I suffered for my kindness. I always regret it, I told everyone I’d change, but then I would just feel worse. How can I be a bad person because one did me wrong? I can’t. I’m not that type of person….but the person I became was much more bothersome. I was a puppet with a heart, and everyone had the strings…(so poetic, I know).
And now that I’ll be 23 this year, everyone asks me about my love life. As if they truly are looking out for the best in my affairs, eh. Gotta get married? Yeah, okay. I don’t have anything to say to anyone. For one, I’ve never been in a serious relationship. If you must know. But let me straighten this out to save myself some face: I could be in one, if I wanted too. If I really was just gonna say yes to the first guy, yeah. I would’ve had 10 kids by now. But I’m waiting for that person and I’m never EVER going to settle. Even if it means being 40 and single. I’d rather be old and single knowing that I didn’t settle rather than 25, 2 kids and a husband who I feel impartial or detached too.
I can only ‘date’ Muslims, but the problem is that everyone thinks I’m white. My name is Jessica, I speak proper english…I’m literally pasty white colored now that the winter is here and I have really awesome hair. Not that looking ‘white’ is a bad thing, but I’m kind of having an identity crisis being brought up Muslim in a Middle Eastern mind frame and having everyone not even notice me as ‘their people’ :| You know what I mean? When customers who are Middle Eastern come up to me and speak in broken english because they think I can’t speak arabic….I guess I feel kind of secretive. What the hell am I?!
Undercover. hehhhhhhhh :|!@)!(!&(!@!!!! UGHHH!!!!! :/ l/ I need a vacation…that chicago trip was my downfall, I need to tell you all about that. That’s when I got screwed over by my ‘friend’. Long story, but I’ll tell you guys about it later ;) Is anyone reading this far? Hehe.
Well, that felt pretty good to write. Getting all my feelings out, hehehe. I usually don’t write all that stuff, I think I stopped getting personal like, last year? When everyone crashed my blog and started reading what they shouldn’t (particularly my family bothering me about ME writing about them on MY BLOG).
So um…to end this blog, I just wanna share with you guys some photos I’ve taken. Maybe you guys can tell me if I look Middle Eastern or not? LOL :|
From my webcam (also, if you noticed I grew my eyebrows out…they are much thicker and I like them better this way)
I took this one 3 days ago… I loved this shirt from H&M :) Lisa said it looks like a Japanese shirt, hehe.
I took this one…like a month or so ago when I was growing out my eyebrows which was a very embarrassing/annoying process. BUT IT HAD TO BE DONE. my eyebrows were so thin :/ Guys don’t know but GIRLS you know what I’m talking about. Especially Middle Eastern girls, we care too much about our eyebrows haha they have to be perfect at all times.
I LOVE THESE OWL EARRINGS :) My favorites.
I want to come back here…but only when I’m ready.
Name's Jessica Kobeissi. I'm 22, Lebanese, Muslim, awesome & live in Detroit. I'm an artist - but I can't draw. I'm a Graphic Design major.
Yes! I remember the days when you affectionately referred to us as “seaweeds.” Do you still have your old blogs? Jessica, I don’t think all Arabs look the same; some are quite dark, some are light. My mother looks white (she’s naturally blonde), but she’s %100 Algerian. Queen Rania of Jordan doesn’t look “stereotypically” Arab either:
You look beautiful in those photos! :) and very Middle Eastern too.
Mahin posted this January 24 * #